A Daily Journal of James' "Battle Through Life".

Day 944 Tuesday, August 1st 2006

The doctors continue to tweak James' meds in the hopes of getting him comfortable on oral meds so that he can come home. There has been no real progress in finding out whats causing the problems, this will "probably take some time".

James continues to take walks with us every time we visit, hopefully will help something ?? who knows. Its all pretty frustrating.

Days 945 - 946 Wednesday - Thursday, August 2nd & 3rd 2006

We got some positive news on Wednesday as an ultrsound on James kidney's showed no signs of hydronephrosis. Thursday was chemo day, since the source of James' back pain is still unknown, the oncologist decided not to give James Vincristine as one of its side effects is neuropathic pain, a possible, but unlikely cause of his pain.

With James feeling better on the new mix of drugs, and since none of them are in IV form, he was given the green light to come home Thursday afternoon.

James is scheduled for a PET scan on Monday morning, the results, which we are always anxious for, have a bit more importance as it should give us some more clues, or at least eliminate some choices as to why his back hurts.

Days 947 - 949 Friday - Sunday, August 4th - 6th 2006

James continues to feel a little better each day. The problems that caused him so much trouble over the last couple of weeks, back pain and kidney/urinary issues, seem much better, currently the main issues are dealing with the chemo side effects ... not sleeping well and nausea.

James had a somewhat busy and social couple of days, out for walks, car stereo shopping with Aaron and going out to dinner and movies with friends.

The next couple of days will be pretty interesting ... we will be anxiously awaiting Mondays PET scan results, trying to get James off of the 14 different drugs he's taking each day, and eager to see how his body handles getting back to physical therapy ... never a dull moment ...

Day 950 Monday, August 7th 2006

Today was one of James' better days ... the PET scan went well and finished around 11:00 ... he took a short nap and then went to physical therapy. He arrrived home energized and feeling great. All in all a very good day !!!

Day 951 Tuesday, August 8th 2006

James continues to be doing pretty good, he wanted to go out and play golf today but with us being a little nervous about him aggravating his back again, we suggested he wait a few days before going out to the course.

I guess in a perfect world we would have had the PET scan results Monday afternoon .. we didn't. I called this morning, talked with the doctors, and again this afternoon ... still no results. As frustrating as it is .. I know they are very busy and are doing thier best ... but gosh .. at least call me and tell me something .. anything ... tell me you didn't have time, or the radiologist hasn't read them yet ... no communication really stinks !!!

Day 952 Wednesday, August 9th 2006

James got up early, went and had his blood drawn and then was off to physical therapy. He "chilled" for most of the afternoon and then we all went bowling after dinner. Bowling was fun ... Aaron and James tied the second game so they played a third game tie breaker .... Aaron won.

I called first thing this morning to get Mondays PET results, the prelimanary read was not encouraging, there were two lymph nodes that showed up as PET positive, these are new nodes that had not been positive on previously scans. The plan was for the oncologist to meet with the radiologist at 11:30am and go over the PET results and to compare them with the CT scan, then call to update us ... yup .. we never got a call ... It was a long day.

Tomorrow is chemo day, I gotta believe we will get the complete results while in the hospital .. but who knows.

Days 953 - 954 Thursday and Friday, August 10th and 11th 2006

Thursday was chemotherapy day, it marks the last of 4 cycles (155 days) of the Irinoteacan, Vincristine and Temodol regimen. Up until now, this treatment has been pretty well tolerated, but for some reason today did not go very well. At first, about 2 1/2 hours into the treatment, James started getting itchy and felt a little warm. Things continued to get worse as the day went on. There were two main issues, James felt a strong burning feeling .. not a fever type of thing, but felt like his body was on fire on the inside, to go along with this he was very unstable when he stood up ... to the point of him falling down in the kitchen.

Thursday night was a really rough night and Friday was not much better. James (and Pam) were back in the hospital at 9:00am on Friday, they ran some blood tests, gave him some IV fluids and pain meds. Unfortunately, nothing seemed to help, the theory is that this is just a "side effect" and it will hopefully pass.

Test results : There is a correlation between the two PET positive lymph nodes and the CT scan. James is scheduled for an Needle Biopsy performed by Interventional Radiology (they use a "live xray" to guide them to the proper spot). At a minimum, they should be able to determine wether the nodes are active due to inflamation ... or due to cancer. Best case would be that they would be able to get enough of a sample to do some staining and possibly gain some more clues to exactly what type of cancer James has been battling. Copies of the PET and CT are being sent to Dana Farber, once the results of the biopsy are available we will be traveling to Boston to meet with the team there.

Days 955 - 957 Saturday - Monday, August 12th - 14th 2006

James had an "ok" day on Saturday, he was feeling a little better, got out for a short walk at Waterfront Park, he just didn't have much energy ... body still achey.

On Sunday he went to Circuit City in AM and then went with Pam to his Aunt Colleens house, he felt good, looked good. Around 3:00 pm he went to the bathroom and had an immediate spike of pain in his left kidney, there blood in his urine. The pain continued, throbbing spasms in left kidney, they came right home and we loaded him up with pain meds, within 2 hours the spasm's were better but he was very nauseous, throwing up.

He slept ok Sunday night but still had "spiking" pain when going to the bathroom Monday morning. James and Aaron went for a walk in the afternoon, Monday night we all went and played wiffleball at Little Fenway and then went out for a bite to eat.

Its bothersome how quickly things can turn for the worse, we now never leave the house with out "back-up" ... a pocket full of pain meds.

Day 958 Tuesday, August 15th 2006

I feel like I'm in the movie "Groundhog Day", every day is the same .. James wakes up, is in pain and uncomfortable ... our minds wonder if its ever going to get better ... by the afternoon, after medication, he feels ok. Pam and I take a deep breath ... have a drink and crash.

James' biopsy has been postponed a day, it is now scheduled for Friday, this will probably postpone the pathology and results until next week ... more waiting. With the recurrence of tumor, Boston feels that a Stem Cell Trasnplant does not make sense ... so now what ??? who knows ... There has been some talk about surgery to try and repair the kidney/bladder pain issue ... but that was before the PET results, so how do we deal with that issue ...

Day 959 Wednesday, August 16th 2006

Pam and I (and I'm sure James) are growing increasingly frustrated. James' left kidney continues to give him problems ... pain from Sundays incident lingered thru Tuesday, today he was fine all day, he walked, felt good was watching TV with Pam this evening then got up to go pee ... bamm .. pain spiked in his left kidney (no blood .. no problems with flow etc. just a lot of pain). Its been a few hours .. and lots of meds and its still hurting. It seems to be the same scenario as Sunday .. it comes out of nowhere and takes hours and sometimes days to recover.

Days 960 & 961 Thursday and Friday, August 17th - 18th, 2006

Thursday was a fairly uneventful day, James felt a little better and was able to go to his physcial therapy appointment.

Friday James was scheduled for his CT guided biopsy. Earlier in the week, during the pre-admissions call, I was informed that this procedure would be done under conscious sedation using Versed (similar to valium) and Fentanyl (for pain relief). James has become very weary of operations and is very sensitive to pain .. he is always adamant about being "put out", I knew it wouldn't sit well so to minimize his anxiety I elected not to tell him until we were on our way to the hospital. It was a long wait in the hospital, things were running late .. the longer we waited the more jittery and anxious James became. While we waited for the CT to become available, the radiologist performing the procedure brought me into a room to discuss the procedure. He had James' latest CT and PET scans displayed on a couple of computer screens so he could show me the lymph nodes he was going after. I had been under the impression that the targeted nodes were along his back and would be easy to get to, I was surprised to see where they actually were and how precise the positioning of the needle had to be to avoid his spine and some of his internal organs. Due to the delicate nature of this operation, the radiologist was only planning on getting enough "cells" to verify whether the lymph node was "just inflamed" or whether it was enlarged due to cancer. I discussed James' dilemma and expressed my hopes that enough of a sample would be obtained so that pathology might be able to take another crack at determing the type of cancer.

After 6 1/2 long hours the procedure was done, James had recovered and was back home. The report from the doctor was that things went well and although it was not clear, we believe they got enough of a sample to do a "biopsy". Having said that, in retrospect we are not exactly sure what was meant by "biopsy" .. I guess we'll just have to wait and see (yes its my fault for the ambiguity as I forgot to bring our note book and know we can't remember exactly what was said ... damn !).

James was starving (he couldn't eat at all prior to the operation) and wanted chinese for dinner ... a sure sign that he was fully recovered ...

Days 962 - 964 Saturday - Monday, August 19th - 21st, 2006

The weekend was pretty quiet, James was still pretty sore from the biopsy and it rained for most of the weekend .. it really made for a good excuse to lay low.

Monday was a bit more "exciting", from talking with James's oncologist ... they fell that they had obtained a large enough piece of tissue to determine whether the biopsied area represents tumor or not, it is very unlikely they will be able to make any diagnosis from the sample. The results should be available on Tuesday. We have a meeting scheduled for Wednesday to try and figure out what the next type of treatment will be.

Monday night James called Pam and I into his room for a talk, this was very unusual as he never talks about the way he feels. It was a difficult and emotional conversation, especially with so much uncertianty, hopfully we can get a new plan in place and started ASAP.

Day 965 Tuesday, August 22nd, 2006

Today was a good day ... James wasn't bothered by any particular pain or problem, he went and got his blood drawn, got a hair cut ... he was very upbeat and seemd to be in a good mood. It was great to see ... and feel ... it is amazing how much of an effect it has on Pam and I, it was wonderful to finally we have a semi stress free day.

Day 966 Wednesday, August 23rd, 2006

James, Pam and myself met with James' oncologist today to discuss the results of his biopsy. It was a tough meeting as the news was not good. James, who generally hides his emotions quite well, was visibly upset. I know I've said it before ... but I can't even imagine whats going through his mind ... 2 1/2 years, the ups and downs .. sooo much to handle for such a young man ....

The plan, which I believe Boston is in line with, is to pursue having the two lymph nodes surgically removed, radiation therapy, and following it up with experimental There are many, many details that still need to be worked out.

Here is a great link to information about Angiogenesis.

Days 967 - 969 Thursday - Saturday, Aug 24th - 26th, 2006

James has had a pretty good couple of days, he's been pain free and doing lots fun things. On Thursday Aaron and James went to Circuit City and bought some new speakers for their car, James went for a long afternoon walk and went to the movies that night. Friday he went to physical therapy while Aaron and I installed the speakers. Saturday James and I did some touch up painting on the car and James detailed the interior afterwards .... boys and their cars !!!

We received some new details of the anti-angiogenesis chemotherapy and it was a little bothersome. There is a phase II clinical trial of a 5 drug anti-angiogenesis chemotherapy at Dana Farber. At this point there are two items that are a little disconcerting, the trial lasts for 27 weeks and I am not clear as to whether or not we need to be in Boston for that entire period of time, at the very least I suspect we would have to take multiple trips to Boston each week, with many over night stays. The second issue is that this is a clicnal trial, which are considered "experimental" .. ie not an FDA approved treatment, so I'm not sure whether it will be covered by insurance.

Days 970 - 971 Sunday - Monday, Aug 27th - 28th, 2006

The word of the day is patience ... we are struggling with patience as we wait for news ... nothing yet concerning James' surgery, radation, insurance coverage ....

Its a funny thing .. James has felt really good the last couple of days, on Sunday he went to a belated High School graduation party for one of his friends and Monday he had a great time hanging with his brother, playing some computer games he went to physical therapy and hit some golf balls at the driving range.

Days 972 - 973 Tuesday - Wednesday, Aug 29th - 30th, 2006

Not that I'm superstitious ... but I knew I shouldn't have talked about how good James was doing ... The last two days have not been good, James has been nauseous, throwing up ... his original back pain has returned and he is back on pain meds.

The waiting continues ... although there has been some news ... there is still no plan. What we do know is not great, the surgery to remove the two active nodes will be "a pretty large procedure (but not impossible)". The nodes are located just behind the inferior vena cava (the large vein that carries deoxygenated blood to the heart) and in front of the vertebrae.



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